I can't remember ever being as sick as I am right ... now! But I'm still going to the Bakersfield competition on Saturday. I'm so devoted to the math team. I'm even going to actually try really hard this time! I got discouraged last time and just guessed on some of them.
I just had a really fun thought. I should've bitten Michael's finger today when he was sticking it in my ear. I mean, not when it was still in my ear, but I should jerked my head away and then bit his finger so that he wouldn't consider bothering me again. Yeah, Michael, if you're reading this, I'm gonna bite your finger off. That's right. Why don't you go learn your own Chinese? He's got problems. I hope I got him sick. Chances are slim though. What is it with people who are really stupid? And, by stupid, I mean obnoxious. The fact that someone isn't as cool as the cool seniors doesn't give them the right to make a mockery out of everything he says and does, out of everything that defines who he is! Why is it the nerds that always get knocked down, anyways? Is the desire to adhere to one's studies a joke? Even if studying isn't the most fashionable thing to be doing, cool seniors shouldn't knock down a lowly junior trying to make the best of his free time in AP Stats by studying for the big AP Government test. Do they not consider that I might not share their great aptitude for understanding the United States government? I realize that many a time this may not be intentional, but rather a subconscious habit that they don't even notice. Unfortunately, a flaw undetected is still a flaw. For those cool seniors who do mean to persecute the nerds, I can only guess that you only despise something that you can never and will never be. What's more embarrassing--being a nerd who studies to achieve good grades or being a senior in a class full of juniors and struggling while the juniors coast through? Why don't you sleep on it, cool senior. That goes for all the cool juniors too, and the cool sophomores, and however few cool freshmen there are. Big guns at the bottom of the high school hierarchy. Quite impressive, I would say. By all means, don't misunderstand me. I do take the cool freshmen seriously, for they mutate and molt and become the cool juniors and seniors we all come to know and love. Sure, there are some cool seniors who do not possess the aforementioned characteristics--diamonds in the rough. But as for the rest ... even if you're mildly guilty, it never hurts to try and change.
I believe I sounded like Mr Price just now, but that's not such a bad thing. The man has good intentions. For goodness sake, people! He puts a lot of effort into his work and stays up preparing his lectures every night, and people just get their sleep everyday in return for something that he sacrificed sleep trying to prepare. When he gave his speech about Senior Ditch Day, few if any took him seriously--and it really disturbs me to think that it's become cool to scoff at something he said with such heartfelt emotion.
It's depressing. It's always funny until it happens to you. Then you realize what you've been a part of, and for so long! A [metaphorical] look in the mirror's all it takes. It makes me feel bad that I even found humor in those antics at one time. I hate to be hypocritical, but I must say, in my defense, that I've been trying to be nicer, with respect to the people that I used to and maybe still make fun of. Hm. Oh well. If your response to any of this was "shut up" or "you're such a loser" or anything of that sort, you're just the type of person I'm talking about, and you're just going to get through life either incredibly disliked or by being incredibly fake.