18:19 Monday, January 5 Disclaimer: This isn't me being depressed. This is me just thinking about stuff.

What if I said exactly what I felt?

Break comes to an end. But who cares about school? The good thing about school is that I'll be able to see some really cool people everyday now. You know who you are. Well, maybe you don't, but then it's your fault for not being intuitive enough. I need to end this semester well. People, if I don't get all As, which is a strong possibility, then please remind me how irrelevant it is in the grand scheme of things.

Yes, the grand scheme of things. What I was trying to get at before. When you think about it more generally, life could be considered pointless. You're born. You do things. You die. Of course, this is disregarding any religion or life beyond this one. I don't really know a lot about religion, so I'm not going to get into it right now. But when I die, I'm not going to be saying, "Boy am I proud of graduating as a valedictorian in high school!" Things don't matter as much anymore. I want to remember important things like being a good friend or helping people I don't know. The thing is, we're so consumed with securing our future with material success because we need to. It's the only way to ensure a comfortable life. It all comes down to money these days. I would hope that someone with money can still have a good heart.

What do a terrorist, a sane person, the top half of a jar of candy, and Melissa's cell phone battery power have in common? They all weren't at Emily's house today! We ate pizza, watched some Gauntlet show, Room Raiders, and Boiling Point. I raided some of her candy, played with the black sword thing, and APIPed only once! How grand. We acted out a scene with a bunch of random, unrelated lines. [P.S. next time we have to bring cameras and try that dark room idea.] 'Twas a good time.

Random thoughts of the day:

1. Okay I changed my mind. I want a good resolution camera. Perhaps a Sony Cybershot, because they're pretty small too. Or a Canon, depending on the model.
2. A completely white room [with nothing in it] would be fun to have.
3. And hard to clean
4. Kind of like where Morpheus tells Neo more about the fate of mankind [after he's been unplugged in #1].
5. Room Raiders inspires me to have a really cool room. With cool stuff. I'll wait til college time.
6. I hate change.
7. All good things eventually come to an end. It's inevitable that we will one day have to part with something or someone we love.

Of course, I'd say just make the best of it. Would I rather start something great knowing that it will only end than go on without having to deal with that? I'd say-- yes. The sweet is not as sweet without the sour.

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