I'm tired of being naive. I'm sick of getting my hopes crushed. I still waver between idealism and cynicism, but I thoroughly enjoy being cynical. The discussion in Lit today was pretty enjoyable. I like them, especially when people get into it. It's obviously easier to open up to people when all you've seen is the good in them. But isn't it understandable and even forseeable that a person who's been hurt will be disinclined to trust people and see the good in them? There are generally two types of people. The first tends to go for the extremes--the pursuit of happiness and risk of sorrow. The second stays in the middle and experiences neither. It really just pends on what you're willing to risk.
Perhaps my current cynical state has tainted my views, but I agree with what Dustin [Hooten] said today: You can never trust anybody to do anything. Or maybe be anything. I think that this is true, but not necessarily as bad as it sounds. I would like to think I'm a good person. I know that most people who know me would probably regard me as such, but I know this will not always be the case. I can see myself somewhere along the way letting down those closest to me. I have flaws that I try to conceal, but they may get the better of me when I'm not strong enough. This isn't necessarily evil, but rather weakness. We all have weak moments. I only hope that mine pass quickly or that my friends understand me enough to look past them.
Though a lingering sense of naiveté still remains somewhere within me.